it's really been so long... but i really can't stand it no more....this will be pretty ambiguious and emo so just move on to the next blog if you have to

i really don't know whats wrong with me...
maybe it's just not meant to be...
i feel so irritated with myself. RAHS!
WHY!!!!!
i know what i should do but the will and mind is weak...
this sux!
can i just forward my life to the happy parts?
i thought it was over, i thought i had put it all down, but why must the past come back to haunt me?
i'm lost...who can i go to? i don't know...really

oh well...
i need to move on
i hope this is a real start...no turning back this time...i really mustn't
GOD please give me the strength to get over this period of time...pls
give me renewed strength for each new day...

hope will be my companion on this jouney i'm about to embark,
the Lord shall watch over me on the road to a better destination=P