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i'm supposed to be researching for something for gp...but ended up blog surfing and eventually here.

was reading nic's blog about how she was really lucky to have so many friends that care about her and all. This reminded me of all the little things that my friends have done for me and i realised that i've been taking them for granted. The smses of encouragement from chin and char and even yilin in the past. The talks over the phone with nic over problems that even though nic didn't really know how to help me with,she still tried to listened. The letter along with the moo moo that char passed me...i kinda cried when i saw the letter cause it was really timely. It came during a time when i felt that i was really lonely, it made me realise that people do care.

There was too much uncertainty in the relationships that i've established in jc. Perhaps that i've been too reserved, i didn't make my thoughts known. Or rather i didn't dare to make them known. I dun know why. maybe its cause i'm too self concious...

Cause of that i've had too many regrets... for not keeping in contact with qin ling, pei shan, eileen, michelle... for not building a stronger friendship with the many people that i had the chance to come in contact with...cca people, the class, bryan, claudia...




just went back to read my last post and i realised that it sounded pretty freaky...i sounded so depressed
anyways, was just being emo so nothing to worry about...nothing really wrong with me ya
I think i get emo easily when i'm left alone...

Mummy's on leave now so we'll be going shopping!=P
yea!
love shopping. I think retailing is a really great way of relieving stress...thank God for GSS<3
but i think i've spent a tad too little this year....hmmm




it's really been so long... but i really can't stand it no more....this will be pretty ambiguious and emo so just move on to the next blog if you have to

i really don't know whats wrong with me...
maybe it's just not meant to be...
i feel so irritated with myself. RAHS!
WHY!!!!!
i know what i should do but the will and mind is weak...
this sux!
can i just forward my life to the happy parts?
i thought it was over, i thought i had put it all down, but why must the past come back to haunt me?
i'm lost...who can i go to? i don't know...really

oh well...
i need to move on
i hope this is a real start...no turning back this time...i really mustn't
GOD please give me the strength to get over this period of time...pls
give me renewed strength for each new day...

hope will be my companion on this jouney i'm about to embark,
the Lord shall watch over me on the road to a better destination=P




superficiality
i'm lost
i seemed to have changed
for the better or worse ...i don't know

withdrawn
maybe gone
still here? i'm not sure
split between 2 characters?...i don't know

future
what does it hold?
will it all last forever...
maybe ... it was all meant to be




HOW TO BE HAPPY
1)live and let live
2)learn to let go
3)do not dream to attain the unattainable
4)try not to be so sensitive about the things going around you aka be blur
5)be happy with the status quo
6)do not envy others, you may not have whatever they have but they may also not have whatever you have...its a give-and-take relationship, certain sacrifices are needed to poccess certain things
7)tell your secrets only to the ones you really trust, but you must learn to identify this trustworthy person first

i guess that's about it...pretty simple yet difficult
we are afterall normal humans made of flesh and blood and (hopefully ) some brains
that's why there are so many unhappy people




maybe failures and uncertainties are needed to reflect the happiness in life




It's ben a week since i last blogged...that's a good thing i guess cause most of the time, i'll only blog if i become emo...anyways, i watched Kung Fu Dunk with char, chin and yilin after school today...wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. At least it wasn't as exaggerated as Shaolin soccer...hahas=P The movie really took me away from everyday life...I really yearn for a break away from school...i'm tired...
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Was just wondering if i had offended anyone recently, cause i'm more comfortable with the people around me now and when this happens i tend to just shoot my mouth off (or rather talk rubbish without the intention of hurting)...i really dunno...hopefully not...
I also realised that the gap between me and some people is growing...its just that they already know me so well that there isn't much a need to say much so the conversations seem to be shorter...maybe i'm too sensitive.
Sometimes i just wish that people were less complex, or rather life as a whole. Maybe, it'll be great if i could read people's minds then i'll know if i've said anything wrongly or if i've offended anyone...If life was simpler, it'll really cater to slackers like moi, then my 70++++ years on Earth wouldn't be so taxing. Then again if people and life were really that simple, then all the years here would be really mundane.




It's been so so long...lotsa things happen but some things are meant to be kept a secret so ....ya i shan't be blogging in too much detail...
Been getting too lazy to blog and to read others blogs. I also realised that what i say on my blog is very much rubbish so maybe i should only blog when i've really got something to say or when i'm really bored (which then creates more rubbish....oh well i don't know what i'm saying exactly).
School's good though i still can't get vectors but other than that everything's fine with the work, friends and the research project.
CNY's just passed and i think i totally spoilt my stomach by eating 3-4 heavy meals a day, i constantly feel so bloated....:'( The 'income' for this year seems to have fallen though people give bigger ang paos, the number of ang paos seem to have reduced, guess i'll just have to ask for a higher % of it for keeping:)hahas
Was supposed to join Jeremy and Ceph in baking cookies today but couldn't in the end cause we had to do some visiting...pity cause i haven't baked for quite some time...wonder how their cookies turned out?




Its the last day of the year and i was just pondering on the year that has just sped past.
Though I always complain about life, I realised that there are still things that I should be thankful for...

1)the friends that I have gotten closer to this year
-nic and yj for listening to me when i needed to talk to someone and also for accompanying me whenever i needed it
-claud for not getting irritated at me whenever i couldn't solve any of the probs during tuition (which is alot)...and all the tolerence that you have

2)26/07 for making school less boring and for just being the best class ever!

3)old friends who i haven't contacted for a long but still remember to call me up once in a while

4)for being able to promote successfully

5)the ups and downs that i had never experienced in all the pervious 16 years

2007 will come to a close in 1hr and 15min...
...cheers to a new begining tomorrow!=P