scorpion's escape

SHIFTED!

2008-11-18T23:07:00.001+08:00

i've shifted to wordpress so pls relink=p
http://descorpiocastle.wordpress.com/

2008-07-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

i'm supposed to be researching for something for gp...but ended up blog surfing and eventually here.

was reading nic's blog about how she was really lucky to have so many friends that care about her and all. This reminded me of all the little things that my friends have done for me and i realised that i've been taking them for granted. The smses of encouragement from chin and char and even yilin in the past. The talks over the phone with nic over problems that even though nic didn't really know how to help me with,she still tried to listened. The letter along with the moo moo that char passed me...i kinda cried when i saw the letter cause it was really timely. It came during a time when i felt that i was really lonely, it made me realise that people do care.

There was too much uncertainty in the relationships that i've established in jc. Perhaps that i've been too reserved, i didn't make my thoughts known. Or rather i didn't dare to make them known. I dun know why. maybe its cause i'm too self concious...

Cause of that i've had too many regrets... for not keeping in contact with qin ling, pei shan, eileen, michelle... for not building a stronger friendship with the many people that i had the chance to come in contact with...cca people, the class, bryan, claudia...

2008-06-10T19:22:00.002+08:00

just went back to read my last post and i realised that it sounded pretty freaky...i sounded so depressed
anyways, was just being emo so nothing to worry about...nothing really wrong with me ya
I think i get emo easily when i'm left alone...

Mummy's on leave now so we'll be going shopping!=P
yea!
love shopping. I think retailing is a really great way of relieving stress...thank God for GSS<3
but i think i've spent a tad too little this year....hmmm

2008-06-08T21:39:00.003+08:00

it's really been so long... but i really can't stand it no more....this will be pretty ambiguious and emo so just move on to the next blog if you have to

i really don't know whats wrong with me...
maybe it's just not meant to be...
i feel so irritated with myself. RAHS!
WHY!!!!!
i know what i should do but the will and mind is weak...
this sux!
can i just forward my life to the happy parts?
i thought it was over, i thought i had put it all down, but why must the past come back to haunt me?
i'm lost...who can i go to? i don't know...really

oh well...
i need to move on
i hope this is a real start...no turning back this time...i really mustn't
GOD please give me the strength to get over this period of time...pls
give me renewed strength for each new day...

hope will be my companion on this jouney i'm about to embark,
the Lord shall watch over me on the road to a better destination=P

2008-04-04T19:53:00.002+08:00

superficiality
i'm lost
i seemed to have changed
for the better or worse ...i don't know

withdrawn
maybe gone
still here? i'm not sure
split between 2 characters?...i don't know

future
what does it hold?
will it all last forever...
maybe ... it was all meant to be

2008-03-09T13:44:00.002+08:00

HOW TO BE HAPPY
1)live and let live
2)learn to let go
3)do not dream to attain the unattainable
4)try not to be so sensitive about the things going around you aka be blur
5)be happy with the status quo
6)do not envy others, you may not have whatever they have but they may also not have whatever you have...its a give-and-take relationship, certain sacrifices are needed to poccess certain things
7)tell your secrets only to the ones you really trust, but you must learn to identify this trustworthy person first

i guess that's about it...pretty simple yet difficult
we are afterall normal humans made of flesh and blood and (hopefully ) some brains
that's why there are so many unhappy people

2008-03-02T16:31:00.005+08:00

maybe failures and uncertainties are needed to reflect the happiness in life

2008-02-19T21:24:00.002+08:00

It's ben a week since i last blogged...that's a good thing i guess cause most of the time, i'll only blog if i become emo...anyways, i watched Kung Fu Dunk with char, chin and yilin after school today...wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. At least it wasn't as exaggerated as Shaolin soccer...hahas=P The movie really took me away from everyday life...I really yearn for a break away from school...i'm tired...
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Was just wondering if i had offended anyone recently, cause i'm more comfortable with the people around me now and when this happens i tend to just shoot my mouth off (or rather talk rubbish without the intention of hurting)...i really dunno...hopefully not...
I also realised that the gap between me and some people is growing...its just that they already know me so well that there isn't much a need to say much so the conversations seem to be shorter...maybe i'm too sensitive.
Sometimes i just wish that people were less complex, or rather life as a whole. Maybe, it'll be great if i could read people's minds then i'll know if i've said anything wrongly or if i've offended anyone...If life was simpler, it'll really cater to slackers like moi, then my 70++++ years on Earth wouldn't be so taxing. Then again if people and life were really that simple, then all the years here would be really mundane.

2008-02-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

It's been so so long...lotsa things happen but some things are meant to be kept a secret so ....ya i shan't be blogging in too much detail...
Been getting too lazy to blog and to read others blogs. I also realised that what i say on my blog is very much rubbish so maybe i should only blog when i've really got something to say or when i'm really bored (which then creates more rubbish....oh well i don't know what i'm saying exactly).
School's good though i still can't get vectors but other than that everything's fine with the work, friends and the research project.
CNY's just passed and i think i totally spoilt my stomach by eating 3-4 heavy meals a day, i constantly feel so bloated....:'( The 'income' for this year seems to have fallen though people give bigger ang paos, the number of ang paos seem to have reduced, guess i'll just have to ask for a higher % of it for keeping:)hahas
Was supposed to join Jeremy and Ceph in baking cookies today but couldn't in the end cause we had to do some visiting...pity cause i haven't baked for quite some time...wonder how their cookies turned out?

blessings

2007-12-31T21:52:00.000+08:00

Its the last day of the year and i was just pondering on the year that has just sped past.
Though I always complain about life, I realised that there are still things that I should be thankful for...

1)the friends that I have gotten closer to this year
-nic and yj for listening to me when i needed to talk to someone and also for accompanying me whenever i needed it
-claud for not getting irritated at me whenever i couldn't solve any of the probs during tuition (which is alot)...and all the tolerence that you have

2)26/07 for making school less boring and for just being the best class ever!

3)old friends who i haven't contacted for a long but still remember to call me up once in a while

4)for being able to promote successfully

5)the ups and downs that i had never experienced in all the pervious 16 years

2007 will come to a close in 1hr and 15min...
...cheers to a new begining tomorrow!=P

2007-12-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

Am back from the holidays!
really exhausted from all 12 days, methinks that the holiday was too long.
not really in the mood to blog about it now, will do so some other time i guess...
anyways, school's starting and i still have hw undone! i am so dead...haiz

why do i get the feeling that no body cares?
why am i just an odd piece that won't fit?
why?

2007-12-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

I just came back from malaysia so now i have something to blog about!

hahas...i kinda addicted to blogging now though i dunno why since most of the time i really have nothing particular to type about, lol...sounds silly but yea...
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Well, actually i went to malaysia to attend some wedding of my dad's ex-staff. It was pretty boring cause i didn't know anyone there except my parents and my brother so i felt quite out-of-place there. The food's good though, the variety was like the kind that weddings have 5 years ago...as in they have suckling pigs and those dou-sha pancakes that are really yummy and are hardly seen at weddings in singapore nowadays.

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Dunno when they started to vanish from the wedding menus to give away to other less-nice food...why change? I mean , changes arn't always good so just stick to the original... we all have to change for the better but dun loose your identity in the process... perhaps we shouldn't change just to fit into the mould set by others. ... i hope that you'll realise this soon...

Live life the way you'll like to, just be yourself...

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Oops! i'm starting to digress.hahas... Anyways, the wedding was a new experience and at least we managed to squeeze some shopping time in=P

2007-12-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

There's really nothing much to blog about these days but i'm bored and i found some random pics in my handphone ...so i'll make use of them to kill my time now

can you guess what this is?

its duck tongue!

daddy and mummy got it from their shanghai trip. I must say its pretty nice at first taste but the taste lingers in my mouth for so long that i started feeling rather sick since the taste is rather strong.

This is the winnie the pooh that peishan, claude and dhini bought for me along with the eeyore that i bought for myself...just couldn't resist after seeing the one that char has=P

I've went to macs to do hw with nic and this is the cuppacino i bought

the flower was so pretty i just couldn't bear to drink it....but i finally had to cause it was turning really cold ...hahas

Mummy got me my chrismas pressie already and just passed it to me...yes i know its rather early...just about 18 days ahead of time...Its this really nice pendent( is it spelt like that?) hmmm....can't really see it here though. I love you mummy, you're so so so sweet! *muacks*

I liked the box the most though, the ribbon's so cute..xp

And there's this perfume too. Dunno why she got me that anyway...i dun wear it in the first place but the packaging's nice...its citrus =D

ok ...getting tired after dragging the pics down one by one (lousy blogger)...

*yawns*

ciao

till i find more interesting stuff to blog abt

2007-12-06T09:32:00.001+08:00

Had ogl training for the pass 3 days. Lotsa games, cheering and fun with all the other ogls in odin. The enthusiaism made me look forward to the next training session each day=D
To think that i even dreaded this 3 days of training initially... at first there were the cliques in odin cause we were all from different classes and odin was made up largely by 26/07 so naturally we formed the biggest clique but after all the games and interacting we've gotten to know each other better and the clique boundaries begin to fade. My clan is Himdal and my clan ogls are Vince and Malikka, dun really know them very well but still i'm sure we'll work fine together. I look forward to more cheers during orientation 1!
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Met up with peishan yesterday to celebrate her birthday! Its been soo soooo long since i last saw pei shan and dhini. I'm so glad that we could just pick up from where we left off , it was as if we still meet each other daily in school. I was worried initially that there will be so much akward silence during dinner.

Claudia had to sneak out halfway during dinner cause she had a stomachache and was going to meet and bring dhini to cartel but actually the both of them went to buy ps a birthday cake! Her 'stomachache' dragged for almost 1/2 and hour and i had to keep covering up for her. Then they both didn't know how to light the candle so i had to say that i needed the toilet too, just to go out and light the candle for them. hahas... And it turned out that dihini was late cause her house was flooded, so yj kept calling her the flood victim...hahas

ps. thanks for the winnie the pooh...<3s

2007-11-30T18:15:00.000+08:00

an odd piece in a jigsaw puzzle...it just won't fit

2007-11-29T19:20:00.001+08:00

i made OREO CHEESECAKE today!

This is it! but this pic doesn't make it look as appetising as it does in real life...the camera on my phone is really lousy.

Its another recipe...hope it tastes as nice as the other one...yummy!=D

Too Cute

2007-11-29T00:01:00.001+08:00

cute cute!

Baby Ally Whatever

2007-11-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

saw this quite a few times and i still think she's so so cute xp

2007-11-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

When to watch Enchanted at bugis today!

It has all the ingredients that make a great movie...humour, songs and a fairy tale ending...haha=P I'll highly recommend it! Oh ...it has this really cute chipmunk in it=D

Went shopping at bugis street after that. Its been such a long time since i last shopped till my legs ached. Bought a red top with a belt and necklace...though i'm brushed after that ' vigorous exercise' i'm totally satisfied, it was so worth it!!!!=)Claude was supposed to join us but cause it rained she couldn't leave the bus stop so she took a bus to Suntec instead, its such a pity but we'll meet up again. Seems like a long time since i last saw her...we should meet up with pei shan too...lotsa catching up to do.

Talked quite abit today...as usual, felt really good to be able to talk to someone like that with your guard down and all...

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I've been feeling quite irritated with some people recently but i can't exactly tell them though (obviously) ...hope it'll pass

I've also pretty worried about someone. Heard this piece of news some time ago but its up till now that i'm starting to think of her. Hope she's fine and all but there isn't much that i can help her with...sigh...we're no longer in the same school but still take care...

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PS. sorry for being a wet blanket at the chalet (to anyone affected who saw this)said lotsa crap... was really tired that day

PS. so dead, think i'm falling sick soon cause moi voice has changed and there's so much to be done before the holiday!!!!rah! need more time!

Last PS. why can't blogger have a function that allows you to lock your posts?

~'the only way to be happy is to let go of all wants and desires and be satisfied with your life and make the best out of what youhave'~from "my kiasu teenage life in singapore"

2007-11-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

This will be a really short post cause i just returned from the class chalet and i'm really tired.

Anyways , char , yilin and i reached at 11+ where we met those who stayed over night as they were about to head for macs to have their breakfast. Then, they moved on to the arcade and to play pool while the rest of us went back to the chalet. Things looked up when we started to play mahjong. =P...then some of us went out to eat waffles with ice-cream but it was pretty dissapointing cause it didn't match GElare's standard and it was more expensive (GElare has half price on waffles every tuesday). We continued our mahjong game after that till some people got hungry and so a few of us moved to the foodcourt for dinner.My fav part of the day would have been the talk after dinner but it was interupted but some of the guys who came to include some ghost stories and other stuff that they had to say...

That's about all, i'm really going to rest soon and i think i shouted too much today cause my throat's hurting...ouch!

2007-11-17T15:43:00.000+08:00

I'm so full now cause i just came back from having dim sum...and i'm still going for my grandma's birthday dinner later...oh my, think i'll explode soon...

Anyways, this is a coversation on wu zun that took place between me and my little cute cousin-

me (pointing to a pic of wu zun) : rui cong! handsome right?
Rui cong (looking at me uncertainly) :...huh...got meh?

And he sounded a little disgusted somemore...haiz

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By the way, here's how i spent my birthday:
I spent it starting on my homework!
that's so anti-climax...but no choice, I have to stop going out le...

When people are bored and have nothing to do, their mind wanders...that's what happened yesterday when i started reflecting on the past year.

I know that this sounds really cliche, but ya, time flies...
And soon another year will fly past...

I must say that i changed quite abit this year, maybe it's caused by the environment or maybe i just have to grow up. Growing up forces us to keep more and more stuff to ourselves i think. More things are kept to myself and the brain learns to selectively seive out stuff that you can tell your friends. There are still friends that i can tell everything to though, thank God for them=D.... I just made growing up sound so sinister and complicated.

I haven been contacting the friends that were once so close to me, it's laziness on both our parts , i guess...and its only like a year thats past...can you imagine 5 years down the road?
Sigh...i hope that i'll still keep in contact with moi jc frens...
i dunno...that's what we said at the end of last year too...

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Was just listening to the radio and the DJ was listing the characteristics of people born on the 16/11...She said that they are too ambitious and stubborn...very true i guess...hahas=P She also said that they were sensitive...hmmm...true too...i dunno... i just read too much into certain comments i guess...lao ai xiang na xie you de mei de... sometimes i think i spend toooo much of my life thinking and worrying about silly stuff

...better stop emo-ing le...

2007-11-16T12:37:00.001+08:00

i'm getting too lazy to blog le and to upload photos so i decided to wait for the rest to upload photos first then i can kop from their blogs ...hahaha

here's what's been going on...

Tuesday

Celebrated birthday along with Jos and keng huang. Met with wan chin, yilin, keng huang, justin, nelson, laoda and jos at cine. Then, we all opened our presents, I got this sling bag along with a necklace ,hairbands and an eeyore...rather random but still like it la since its my birthday present.=) Then we left cine and went to taka and did some random walking around. WE also went to the toy fair(?) to look at the toys

cute right ?

this one also...the pooh that is...SO CUTE!

then we started to play those simple video games that they have for children. There were 4 sets and we occupied all 4. hahas...i guess life's getting too complicated that we all want to return to the time where everything's simpler and more innocent ...

we then moved on to macs cause nelson was hungry ...then we ended up sitting there fror quite some time...as usual=)Moved on to plaza sing for dinner at swensens...then wan chin and nelson excused themselves to go to the toilet , and they returned with a slice cake for each of us.hahaha..so gan dong and surprised=P

Still finished the cake (with the help of char) though i was really bloated and full...

I bought this almond biscuit from marks and spencer (the really really nice one!) and i just realised that it expires on 5/12/2007...no wonder on promotion la...feel so cheated...

Its so fun to celebrate with 2 other people...tong nian tong yue tong ri sheng some more...hahas=)

Thursday

went out with yi jia to watch BRATZ at suntec at 10 plus. It was so early that there was only us and 2 other people...so creepy cause at first we thought that it was only the 2 of us. We both were afraid that there will be ghost in that cinema...haha...both of us have fertile imagination...lol

Show was quite nice, it wasn't the bimbotic show i thought it was , it's more on friendships and all the different cliques and all in high school...kinda like the schooling life of a typical singaporean kid...interesting movie

Then we met nic, claude and gene at pizza hut for lunch. We ordered 2 pan pizza's , 1 beef meatballs and 1 hut's platter and we still can't finish it. I ate more than they did! Feel like such a glutton eating with them lorz...lol...then i felt so bloated that i counldn't eat dinner and so i got hungry at bedtime...

My stomach is sooo weird...always feel hungry at the wrong times

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Been going out the past few days so must stay at home le ...haiz so sian. But go out also sian leh...nowhere to go and no money(even more boring)...aiya...why must s'pore be so small?

2007-11-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

took this from darshini's blog
(hope she doesn't mind...it just summarizes all that i miss abt pl)
'it made me think of pl, and how much i miss ( surprisingly) the uniform, and having a class to take refuge in, and singing songs at the back of the class in between lessons, and survival changing after pe, and walking along those corridoors, i miss the corridoors, and the dirty canteen, and having friends to fall back on, who truly understand you, and laugh along at all your quirks, and rant and rave with you about your work and tell you everything will be alright, friends who tell you EVERYTHING, and you need not worry about who knows and doesn't know something, cos everyone knows the same things, cos there just isn't any secrets, cos we all trust and love each other. and i miss talking about our future homes, careers, husbands and just having so much fun, especially during recess when we used to say the stupidest and weirdest things. and i miss those times when nothing else mattered except your studies and friends, and gossip was non-existent. yeah, i miss those times a lot.and it's true when they say pl-lites are sheltered, cos pl wasn't just a school, it was a home. and i wanna go back home.'

...i totally agree...

2007-11-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

The science centre is such a freaky place.
I went there yesterday for some SSEF talk and we had free admission to the science centre so naturally we went around to take a look after the talk. There was this really dark room that is a to 'freeze' your shadow using some high tech thingy. So yi jia, nic, claud ,genevive and i went into this room which had this really bright lights flashing so as to 'capture' our shadow (ewww...). When these lights stopped flashing and the room was dim once again the 'captured' shadows would remain in the previous position. Even if you move after that it'll still be in the previous position! So freaky!Its like some scary movie....ew...i still have that image in my head...Then i started screaming,then it was yi jia followed by genevive...haha
That silly room really scared the daylights out of yi jia and me cause after that we didn't dare to move to dark places in the centre...LOL
Then, it came a time when we both wanted to go to the toilet. We had to walk pass this really dark room with all the old and dusty furniture(dunno whats it for), I was wondering if something will just like jump out and scare us so i stole a glance at yi jia...and she was also staring at that room hesistantly...think we had the same thoughts (we both have furtile imagination..haha=P)
what followed was something like that-
Des:ummm....i think we should turn back...
Yi jia:ya....dun go la ...
Then we both turned and ran back to where the rest were...heehee
It sounds so silly now=D
Now that i type it out, i suddenly feel so foolish ...lol
Whatever it is...beware, the next time you go to the science centre...MaWHAHAHAA!!!=P

2007-11-03T13:54:00.000+08:00

thank you mummy for taking care of me this morning...sorry for shouting and being rude to you

sorry to whoever i threw my temper to this two days...sorry

2007-11-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'm happy cause...

1)2607 just had outing class steamboat dinner at marina

2) everyone did well for pw

-I was more enthu

-gerald was less nervous and did well!!!=)

- char remembered her part(haha...after being so sian from all the memorising)

-everyone was good as usual!

our nametags!

Now that pw is over, i think i'll start to miss it. The times that we would go to jeremy's house in the daylight, then leaving it when the sky was dark. The times where jeremy and i will degress and yilin will pull us back. The nights that we would have to stay up to do stupid things like the footnoting. The drafts that would be covered with red ink, and us not understanding the expectations that ms goh has. The pathetic times in which the lousy school lacks the space for us to practice op and we have to practice on the corridor.

unpluging the plug for the water cooler, replacing it with the charger of jeremy's laptop

AND the laptop's on the fire hose thingy.

I vividly remember the first pw session where we were all so unfamilar with each other, and jeremy was absent (i still remember....). How we became friends through this project and also the minor disagreements we had once in a while.=) will never forget AJ130<3

The steamboat was super nice!....mostly cause of the company...hahas....eating together as a class was fun=P Love the bonds we share, i hope that in the years to come we'll still be as close...

look! all the prawns nelson's table ate! AND he at like 19 of them!!!!!

I seriously hope that his toes won't drop off after all these prawns and crabs.

Yea! so looking forward to the chalet!

That's What Friends Are For

2007-10-30T20:01:00.001+08:00

to 2607 and all my friends!!!!!=P

2007-10-30T19:24:00.000+08:00

Life's so boring recently its so routine like, and aj UNLIKE the other colleges has yet to let us off for our school holidays. I really really really don't know what there is that is sososo important that they MUst keep us back for three extra weeks!!!rah!!!

I was blog surfing and i realised that this year has indeed been eventful. 2607 has really been through alot to be bonded as we are now<3. I remember the class theme for 4A1 was "Ohana, which means family and family means that no one is alone or gets left behind", somehow i still feel that this theme is more appropriate for 2607=)

There were cliques, there still are but they're less distinct. People are nice, and when all nice people are put together they just clique naturally, i guess.=D hahaha...We've come so far together, we'll go even further in the time to come!,<3

sandcastle pics!!!!!rather late though =P

2007-10-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

ask, and i'll tell you!

2007-10-28T08:29:00.001+08:00

I remember I once told a friend, " if you want to know something, ask me and I'll tell you" however I realise that it seems less true as you grow up...it becomes 'ask me and i'll act blur' ...=) Things said will affect more than just myself...consequences on the effects on others cannot be neglected.
fate brought us together, circumstances made us friends
As much as i'll like to help you cause you're still a friend afterall, i'll have to consider the consequences. Afterall, i can't predict how you'll react...i don't know you that well afterall...

Anyway, the op practice yesterday was pretty much fruitless in the sense that my group didn't get to practice but was also fruitful cause I got to have a long long long talk with wan chin (not jos though ,she was late and was busy after she came).=) Let's just say that I knew her much more after that.

The class left for Macs after that and i got this somewhat disgusting iced passion tea (that's cause i forgot the syrup , haha,silly me =P). Once again it became a talk with jos and wan chin. I think we're becoming those little old ladies who just meet up to talk for long long long hours. I got some confirmation to my guesses . Not exactly a pleasant thing though.

When we left Macs we saw this OCBC ad campaign that was giving out rubbery balls (those kinda big ones) and we being kiasu singaporeans grabbed some...ok ...jos grabbed the most. We all grabbed one but she herself grabbed 4 i think. Gerald told me that some people even deflated the balls and contained them in those large black garbage bags...lol=P

Then Jos ,wan chin, Gerald, Justin, Nelson, Charmaine, Glen and Keng Huang left for the hub...that we knew from the back of our hand, so we didn't really shop we're pretty bored with the same array of choices. So we ended up stoning . And we shifted from place to place stoning...haha... And then Keng huang grew hungry (as usual!) and had to eat before he left for IMH. We kinda dispersed from there...xP

It's nice to be out with friends once in a while though all we mostly did was stoning =p

2007-10-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

i dunno if i should be typing this...cause i ...
actually sometimes i'll get the feeling that i'm kinda alone...maybe i think too much...
maybe i shan't go on...

keep the truest part of yourself to only yourself

2007-10-13T15:52:00.000+08:00

went to build sandcastles on thurs with 26/07 as a part of our character development programme...don't ask me how it helps build character cause i still don't see the slightest link between the two. Putting that aside, we actually did have fun with all the class bonding and all. I totally love my class!<3 Though we do have our own cliques and all we're still bonded as a class<3 everyone's ok with everyone so there arn't any distinct barriers between cliques...its just nice to know that we're all together cause i do know of some classes that arn't as bonded and there's just some people in class who are so shelfish that they don't want to share even their wr...thats so patathetic , thank God 26 isn't like that=) Anyway it was really fun with all the dunking and all after that...maybe i can get hold of some pics later ...hmmmm
It was open house for aj and founders' day for pl yesterday, i was at aj but my heart was totally on the latter , i am compelled to do so , i really have no choice ....*sigh*...but i still had fun at aj though, nic kept me entertained. actually we slacked a lot more than we actually worked as in at the booth. we went like 4 times around school though there wasn't much to see...pretty much the same stuff as last year... we wern't really sane yesterday, i don't know what had inspired us to walk around school with our arms hooked together.lol...we even claimed that we wanted to start some homo club in aj...pity wei lun and friend didn't want to join us hahas....lol...wait! i am straight . . . . hahas just thought i should clarify...
I've been pretty busy and all recently with all the op and wr stuff. Been doing it everyday this week...its insane how much time we actually spend on that few activities that we arn't even going to carry out. I&R's deadline is also round the corner...and i still have no idea how to go about doing it.
I've got to start rearranging my room soon, but my head's getting bigger cause i have to think of how tomove my desk and bed...think i'll have to dismentle them...it'll be so troublesome...=(
Think i should settle everything before tues when i get my results when i really won't have the mood to do anything. I'm getting quite scared cause of claud...if you ever see this claud just remember not to dwell on it ,i don't know what to say cause i know that whatever i say will not make the situation any better for you but keep in mind that things will turn for the better...cheer up!

2007-10-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

promos are O-V-E-R!!!
yea! its finally over! but i'm getting kind of bored cause there's nothing much to do around here...lol.
went to k box yesterday with some people in class.Pretty fun cause it's been a long time since i last stepped into k box and well i was with my friends so it was fun (duh! what more can i say ,its so explicit)had dinner with justin ,nelson and yilin after that cause the rest had to rush off.we went to the arcade for a while and i must say that my reaction is really slow (actually yilin's in not any better ...heehee=P) When we were about to leave justinrealised that he lost his phone, damn careless. then we did something quite fun: we went to make a police report! its my first time in a police post (its a good thing i guess. though it may not be justin's due to all his fighting and all...lol=P), we even had the appitite for supper at chomp chomp after that before cabbing back home...
actually, i've been thinking alot recently and i realised that i haven't been really fair to some people cause i 've always been living in the past and i haven't really 'given my all' in the building of friendships with my jc friends...just a realisation that i've made and i know that subconciously i'm holding back. i'm too used to the 'kind of people' in pl so i always thought that all friends are just 'like that' so i'm still not that used to people with different backgrounds. instead of waiting to meet people of the standard 'pl mould' i should have tried to adapt a little better...hahas i hope its not too late to have realised this only now after almost a year. To any of my friends that I've mentioned , i'm really sorry ...

2007-10-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

i want to go back for founder's day!
its in 2 weeks time and i highly doubt that aj will let us off...dun think i can pon though since i just ponned like last week...lao shi will get suspicious
but i really want to go back=(, we already missed teachers' day!stupid aj!
...and there's op workshop ( maybe...)...haiz...i can't miss it!my fate is sealed!!!!!!rah!!!!!
very sad leh...

2007-09-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

This.Is.So.Wrong.
i really really really should be studying and not doing this...but guess what?
i'm getting burnt out (i don't know why i comes so quickly this time)...i can't study and i keep find excuses to slack.
...i went to the pl funfair yesterday (see! slacking again!rah!), it was pretty fun meeting up with old friends yesterday but i only saw jeanne, jac,charisse,wendy and jessica though , maybe i was too early.Pei shan, dhini ,nic mao...4a1 where were the rest of you? The teachers were really busy, so we didn't really talk, but i was still glad to be back. And i found out the reason to why i love wearing shorts so much ... i realised that 90% of the girls that went back wore shorts=P...some weird culture that sprouted in pl.=)
I've been on the phone with nic wong everyday since the day the study break started and we broke our record with 5 hrs ...its not exactly unproductive though cause we really did talk about school work. It made me realise that it has been such a long time since we last talked on the phone for so long. We should do it more often.haha=)
met up with yi jia to study on friday and we were just talking on issue of how we both find it easier to make friends with people that come from english speaking schools. There are more common topics and the sense of humour is similar...the simplest things we say make each other laugh.This is just a generalisation though there are always exceptions to every rule=) I don't know why i'm saying this , it doesn't make a point...hmmm...

2007-09-17T18:37:00.000+08:00

I . AM . SO . HUNGRY!
I dunno what's wrong with me. Seriously.
My brain's malfunctioning and my stomach's overworking with the excessive secretion of gastric juices. Give me a break. Will you 2 just coordinate for a moment? And i can't eat now cause dinner's in 20 minutes...
I dunno why i'm blogging this now , think its cause my brain is disfunctional and a hole is soon forming in my stomach...
I am so crappy=P

2007-09-16T19:18:00.000+08:00

here's what i used to think:

studying hard = good results

now its completely different:

study hard + lots and lots of luck/intellect = normal results

I never thought of myself as someone who was smart, just average maybe. But I never felt stupid either...I dunno...it's just that ever since i came to jc , its like everything's out of my control. I feel helpless and lost , maybe i'm striding down the wrong path but there's no turning back...i've got to move on.

People around me are just so smart...don't get me wrong, i'm not blaming them. It's just that this unequal distribution of intellect just makes me feel inferior...it's like some invisible force weighing down on me. It'll always be there though...its genetics , it cannot be altered.

What's worse is that despite the fact that i know how desperately i need to study to pass, i just cannot bring myself to do it. the motivation is just not there. I used to be able to feel it during the exam period but now...i dunno. Its absence just worsens the situation. I'm feeling stressed and this stupid slacking body i'm in just doesn't want to study (even if i do , its not productive), this adds to my stress!!!!(rah!)

I JUST HATE IT! AND ITS ALL MY FAULT! I HATE WHAT I'M TURNING INTO!I used to be happy, motivated and i was able to do well in school. Why must life change? everything is so different and i just resent it...I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

life just makes fools out of us;

we're just helpless pawns in this game of life

2007-09-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

For everything there is a season,And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

too much...

2007-09-10T18:39:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just think i say too much...

its just that the words just force their way out...somehow...

i just say the wrong things at the wrong time , to the wrong people , about the things that i should not be even talking about ...

whats wrong with me ?!?!? maybe my EQ is just too low (hmmmm.....)

its inborn i guess...should try to change though ...i'll make an effort to

sow a thought ,reap and action,

sow an action ,reap a habit,

sow a habit ,reap a character,

sow a character ,reap a destiny.

muggamania!!!

2007-09-08T10:49:00.000+08:00

i've started mugging finally...just can't beat the stress from yj and claud. do the two of you have to be soooooo hardworking?omg i'm like so slack compared to you two. not exactly complaining though, if not for the two of them i'll probably still be slacking away.=P
lets see...i've just completed 3 chpts of phy and 2 chpts of chem ,none of econs and maths(needless to say LOL).rather bored now cause i'm staring at my integration qns from tuition and i'm blogging (hmmmm.....). its been half an hour and i'm STILL staring at them XP, guess i really MUST start , aiya ,i still have to read the research paper for the disscusion later...this is quite bad ...no time!!!!
i better start now...BUCK UP ,DES!
...this is going to be a long long day...haiz

New blog! LOL

2007-09-06T14:22:00.001+08:00

hahas=p

really should be studying and i don't know why i'm doing this right now...just one of those silly things that you feel that you must do once in a while i guess.

anyway, was just viewing some blogs just now and i realised that i'm missing out on the lives of those who used to mean alot to me. The past made us friends , the future makes us....strangers??? i hope not afterall friendships shouldn't be so brittle right?

I realised that i get emo easily ,don't know why... was just thinking of the good old days (wasn't too long ago ,i guess) where life was simpler and i realised that the more time forces us to move on the more we want to look back at the past...then i thought of pl and this song 'go light your world'. really great song , many of the pl-lites will agree with me XP

Go Light Your World

2007-09-06T14:20:00.001+08:00